Believe in yourself

Is it possible to believe in yourself?  There are so many people who doubt or give up hope in what they can do or who they can become.  How is that possible?  One is by listening to others negative opinions of what they think you are capable of doing or becoming. Two is allowing their opinions to control you or dictate your life. I have found the very people who can’t believe in you are the ones who can’t believe in themselves. They are trapped by their own insecurities. If they can’t believe in themselves how can they believe in you? That’s why it is so important to surround yourself with people who are motivated in their own lives, those who will cheer you on and support you. Begin by re-evaluating your surroundings and make adjustments that will positively impact your life.  But most of all never stop believing in yourself and know that you are somebody.


Start believing in yourself and change your “I Can’t” to “I Can”.


My Savior and King!


He was born in a Manger
To have and to hold
His life much more precious
Than silver or gold
When lo and behold
What a beautiful sight
To all those who traveled
Both day and night
He established His Kingdom
In Heaven and Earth
The greatest gift
His amazing birth!

Who would have known
My Savior and King
The joy of your Salvation
Would make my heart sing
A love so pure
For the world to receive
Yet rejected by many
For they are deceived

Open your heart
And in Him believe
Then turn from your sin
And start living for Him
Jesus was sent
For you and for me
So we could have life
And more abundantly!

Broken Men

Today as I was pumping gas into my car, two men approached me, seemingly intoxicated.  Roland first walked up and completely startled me.  He asked for some change as he stepped a little closer, saying he needed money to get a hotel room for the night.  He explained he had nowhere to go and how he was having a hard time with work and finances.  Standing on alert, I looked him straight in the eyes, knowing he was not being very honest with me.  Asking him to please wait where he was at, I went around to the driver’s side of my car and grabbed the only change I had in my wallet.  Then I grabbed one of the tracks I keep in my car “Finding Peace with God”.  As I handed him the change he thanked me, then I handed him the tracks.  He looked puzzled and asked what the tracks were for.


I began to witness to him about God’s love and why He sent His only Son Jesus to die on the cross for us while we were still sinners.  I continued to explain how God wants us to come to Him just as we are not when our lives are perfect or cleaned up or else no one would ever receive His love and forgiveness because not one person is perfect.  Roland became convicted as I shared with him and confessed to me he only asked for money to buy booze so he can get drunk with his buddy.  He went on to explain how his life was so messed up and that although he didn’t want to hear what I shared, he was glad because he said he needed it.  At that moment I was lead to pray for him.  Lifting his hand to his chest, he gasped “You want to pray for me?!” He was quite shocked and couldn’t believe I was willing to pray with him.  He began to remove his hat and glasses, then bowed his head and closed his eyes.  His buddy Curtis finally approached us as he was watching from a distance.  He too heard the message about God’s love that day.

To some people Roland and Curtis could be viewed as drunks, liars and thieves.  But to God they are broken unsaved men who desperately need a Savior.  It’s His love that pierces the hearts of man.  It’s His love that covers a multitude of sin.  It’s His love that sets us free from condemnation.  It’s by His love that we can walk and live a victorious life in Him!

“For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”  John 3:16

My First Love

What happened between us?  We were so intimate and close.  Our love and relationship was strong.  We were as one.  You said you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me.  Didn’t I love you enough?  Didn’t I show you how much I care?  I thought you trusted me, gave your heart to me.

Did you really love me?  Wasn’t I enough for you?

You shared your dreams with me, your ambitions, your heart and your passion with me.  When you spoke I listened, but you also let me speak, while you listened.  Our communication made us strong.  All those long walks and conversations we had were so special.  I loved it when you danced with me, especially when you sang to me.  The sound of your voice was so tender and sweet because they were love songs made just for me.  We shared every waking moment together, just you and I.

You had such a willingness and openness to do new things.  What fun and adventure we had together.  The joys and the sorrows.

Now I hardly hear from you.  You visit randomly.  Barely say a word.  You seem to come around for a short time and then you’re gone. What is it that stole you away from me? Is it your job, your family, circumstances or is there another one who’s captured your heart?

Wasn’t I there for you?  To listen to you?  To hold you?  To comfort you?  Didn’t I accept you despite your past and all your pain?

I wanted the best for you and thought I gave you my best.

You see, I desire a relationship that will last, a relationship that will endure, and a relationship that never gives up.  No more one night affairs.  I’m very jealous and don’t want anything or anyone to get in between us.

I still love you and will never stop loving you.  You still hold a special place in my heart.  If you ever decide to come back, I’m ready and willing to receive you with open arms.”

Come back…

I miss you…


Your First Love,


Have you forgotten your “First Love”? He’s waiting for you!

Center of My Life

I have found so much satisfaction and joy in walking with the Lord –

Until we step out of our comfort zone, we will never experience “All” that God has for us.

He must become the “Center of our lives”.

I love the words of this song from Hillsong:

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes on you
Lord I’m stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me,
Holding onto You

Freedom comes
When I call You Lord
You are Lord my God

You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you
The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
you placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty
I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I’m stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding onto you

This is your song, not mine
It is your song that brings healing to this land
This is your song, not mine
It is your song that brings freedom
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
You are Lord, my God
You are the song
You are the majesty
I live to sing your song
Your majesty
I live to sing Your song

My heart’s desire

“Fulfillment” resonates with me.  Because I desire to live the abundant life God has called me to live and to function in my gifting, my calling.  I desire to teach and show others that they too can live the abundant life God has planned for them and show them how to get there.

Growing up a very shy and wounded person, I never spoke to anyone and if I did it was a mere few words.  One day I cried out to God to free me from this bondage. I didn’t want to be quiet!  I didn’t want to be the one who had nothing to say, yet I was so full of things I wished I said. I was looked upon as conceited when I was actually just afraid and fearful.  I didn’t realize it was the “enemy” of my soul who wanted my mouth to be shut.  He knew I’d be a powerful tool for the Lord, but I didn’t.  The enemy’s plan is to keep us Quiet!  When God began to speak to me through His Holy Spirit, things began to change. I began to yield myself and step out in Faith as never before.  Although I was still afraid, I just began to trust that my Father knew best and had already planned out my life before time.  God knew the plans He had for me, and wanted me to come to the understanding and belief of what that was and to walk in it.

Well people, I’m silent no more!  That is broken off my life and I intend to open my mouth and let God fill it!  What others are struggling in or captive in, I want to show them there is more to their life!  So much more!

I love Isaiah 61:1-3 –

“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
because the Lord has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor.”

Vision of Heaven

Passing through the hallway I glanced into my nephew’s doorway to see if he was sleeping.  With his head raised staring at the wall, I asked him if something was wrong.  With a worrisome voice he explained that he is unable to fall asleep because of scary images popping in his head.  Kneeling besides his bed I reassured him that Jesus is with him and watching over him and that he had nothing to be afraid of.  Just minutes prior, I had already tucked him into bed and prayed with him.  I let him know I would pray with him again so he would feel comforted.  After I prayed, I asked him to close his eyes and ask Jesus to fill him with good thoughts and show him good things.  To my surprise he answered, “He does”……..

Full of curiosity I asked, “What does He show you?”  “Heaven”, as he smiled.  Oh my, “Really, what did you see?” “A chair.”  Could this be the Throne of God?  By now my eyes are fully lit up, “What does the chair look like?” “It’s BIG.”  “Wow, what else did you see?”  Grinning from ear to ear, “God.”  “Really?!  And what is He doing?” “Sitting on the chair.”   I realized he had been shown something so amazing we only dream or imagine.  “What does he look like?”  “He’s BIG and really white.”  “Wow, did you see anything else?”  Overwhelmed by all these thoughts I visualized every part that he spoke of as if I was there….  “Yes, angels”, still smiling.  “What are they doing?”  As he giggled, “They are all around God.”  “Doing what?”  “Guarding Him.”  By now it begins to hit me like a ton of bricks.  I’ve only read through the book of Revelation several times and the details of ‘The Throne Room’.  How could he know so much?  He is only 5 but what I sensed, this boy has been shown the real deal!  So I ask just for the sake of hearing his answer, “Who told you these things?”  “No one told me”, with the sweetest smile sweeping across his face.  Deep down inside I believed him.  “What do the angels look like?”  “Really white. And heaven is white. Is heaven white Auntie?” full of curiosity.  Thoughts were racing through my head. I’ve only seen a small vision myself of Jesus dressed in a pure, whiter than white robe and two angels standing next to him with huge white wings, I couldn’t see their faces,  and in the background the purest brightest white.  “Tell me more, what else did you see?”  “More angels, lots of them.”  “And what are they doing?”  “They’re singing.”  Blown away and unable to contain it all I pressed for more details but that’s all he could think of at that moment.  Realizing he must be tired I figured I would save my questions for the following day. Surely there was more but I needed to wait.  Then giggling away he said, “I’m going to heaven” so sure of himself and so full of delight.  God must have shown him he was going to heaven.  His finger then pointed right at me motioning back and forth, “And you’re going to heaven”, more giggles.  I was too overwhelmed.  God what else did you show him?  I kissed him goodnight and told him how special he was that God allowed him to see heaven.  He giggled with pure excitement…

That night as I got ready for bed, all I could think about was heaven.  It was so amazing to hear what my nephew saw was exactly spoken of in the book of Revelation, ‘The Throne Room’.

The very next day after work I casually brought up the night before.  “So do you remember anything else about heaven?” His attention was on his toys.  “Tell me about the angels again, what did you see?”  Continuing to play, “Big white white wings but you can’t see their faces.”  “Anything else?” believing new things would be explained.  “Yah”, still occupied.  “What?”  Careful not to place thoughts in his mind, I asked if he saw a light or maybe the sun as I imagined the radiance of God.  He answered, “No, but I see God and He’s Strong, really Strong and Big!”  “What does he look like?”  Reiterating, his focus still not on me, “He’s strong, real strong, and really big.”  “What else?” I thought to myself, he couldn’t have possibly seen his face.  Suddenly he looks at me, his eyes lit up as he smiled, “He’s, bright, bright, bright!”  No doubt he saw the full radiance of God.  “Oh wow and what else did you see in heaven?”  “There’s a table.”  “What kind of table?  Was there anything on it?”  “Yes, a bowl.”  Thinking he said a bull I asked what the bull looked like.  “Nooo, a bowl!”  “Oh! So what was in the bowl?” “Gold.”  This was just more than I could handle.  He spoke so matter of fact as if this wasn’t the first time he saw heaven.  “And there are stars all around the table.  They’re really cool.  But my favorite part is the bowl.  I like the bowl and I like heaven.  I’m gonna go to heaven.”

Have you ever wondered if heaven was real? What does it look like? What does God look like? Is He real?  Revelation 4 speaks of God sitting on the throne and the cherubim and seraphim that stand guarding him day and night, and the 24 elders surrounding the throne dressed in white holding the golden bowls of incense which are the prayers of the saints.  It describes the many angels and how they sing and worship God 24/7.  In the first chapter of Revelation John describes One like the Son of Man whose head and hair were white like wool and Who’s countenance was like the Sun shining in all its strength.  He held the seven stars in His hands which represent the angels of the seven churches.  I challenge you to open your bible and read the account on your own.

Could the brightness of God be so radiant and brilliant that it appears as white?  I believe so.   We can only imagine and hope that the day will come when we will behold God face to face and all His Glory!  Are you ready?